when i cry, everything fall behind my shoulder

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One of my good friend told me that letting go it doesn't mean that we lose or we give up. It's a simple way to say that we admit and accepting the truth. Me...accepting the truth? Hahhaha...yeah rite. I've been running away from the truth since I was teenager. When the truth coming and I hate to admit it, I start run and leave it all behind. But last night I had a big thought about facing the reality. My reality is I'm falling in love with a guy who afraid with commitment. He have a big doubt in his head that I.."the girl he admit to falling in love with"...could be a good wife and mother for him and his future kids. And for me, he... "the guy that stole my heart"... will always be my dream come true.

Most of my friends says that I should leave him. He just not the right one for me. I said nothing cause I have nothing to say. So I stop telling my feeling cause I don't want anybody get their fucking hands into my business. It's really upset me cause everybody said that he's not a nice guy, he's sick in the head, he's player, etc. I love him no matter what. I don't care how long I will drown in this love. I don't know how long I can stand with his mind game. I don't know and please just stop telling me to leave him. Cause I can't and I will not stop fighting to have him back to my arm. JUST STOP IT !!!